Wondering how should i start ... Feel so down ... Though today is a Special day !~
Feel down not becos of no present or card from him ...
Feel down bcos of some topic tat i had spoken to my mum earlier on ...
I really start to find that i dun understand the people that live around me ... They tend to be fake ... They tend to open their wide eye and lie ...
Have nt being working for abt 2mth ... And was pregnant for 7 mth plus ... Mum keep telling me ... " Nvm it okay"... "Understand your situation now"... " Not to worry about MONEY ISSUE" ...
So i tk it as if they really concern n care for me ... N they dun really mind the situation i in now ... But the fact is ... they do really MIND ...
U all mind that I'm not working at all .. U all mind that I'm rotting at home and wasting all e household usage n etc... U all mind that I'm pregnant before marriage .... & this really make me SAD & DISAPPOINTED to heard this all kind of words came out from your mouth ... In the cover ... You seem totally dun mind at all ... But the fact is ... U do MIND LOT ..!~
Why human being is like that .. Why ... Why can't they be more truthful to them and others ??? Is that so difficult ........
Money & Face tend to be much more IMPORTANT then any other thing .... Shamefulness and Being Penniless is the most UGLY thing ...
Somehw ... I really wish time can turn ... To prevent all this to happen ........ Cause ... This is never what i expected to happen ...
Knowing that the road infront of me will be tough then before ... But nevertheless, I will try my best to walk thru ...
I really appreciate that you willing to take responsibility for what had happen ... & I do know that you are trying ur best to shower more love on me to let me feel that you do really care for me ...
U always try to minimize the matter to the smallest .. Cos u dun wan me to worry too much ... In deep ... Thank you for what u had done for me ....
I'm a girl which not good at communication and talking I tend to offend people ... Witout notice .... I'm also straight forward ... Cos i dun lyk to turn one big rd and hint the ppl ...
.... ..... .... Why can people hate e way ur attitude is ... Hate e why u talk .... Hate e way u dos ... But u just can't hate theirs ???
.... ... ..... When u hate theirs ... They will tink that u r picking on them .... Or worst ... Look down on them ...